Thoughts on having a boy.
When you found out you were pregnant did you secretly wish for a girl or boy? Obviously, everyone just wishes for a healthy baby, but in the back of your mind did you have a preference? I’ll be honest. And I even remember talking to ARM about this and my sister. I was secretly hoping for a girl. That’s what I know. I have a niece that I’m very close to, a sister, and a wonderful mother. I wanted to have the same relationship with my “daughter” as I do with my mom. I know princesses, dolls, barbies, my little pony, tea parties, dresses and pink. Maybe it’s because I’m a girl that I felt comfortable with that. There was a 50/50 chance and from the day I found out I was pregnant, I just knew it was a boy. Maybe it was a way to prepare myself mentally for having a boy? I daydreamed about the things I would do with my boy. New things that I will need to learn about in order to teach my son. What will be his interests? Will he be like his dad - a musician, music lover, sports enthusiast, nature lover, straight A student? Will he be into cars? Science? Sports? Bugs? Ballet? Will he be a wild and crazy boy or a calm and reserved boy? I thought about the sports I wouldn’t want him to play - football (too much contact) and baseball (too boring for my taste). And the sports I’d want him to play - soccer, basketball and tennis. But then again I thought about being that “soccer mom” who went to all his t-ball games. I remember asking my mom once, what will he play with? I don’t know how to play with cars and trucks. She laughed and said it will come naturally. We never did find out what we were having and I am so happy that we decided to wait.
Henrik arrived and when the doctor said “it’s a boy!”, I was so extremely happy. Tears of joy. Best day of my life. When they laid him on my chest, all wrinkly and bright eyed, I knew it was meant to be. He was my son. Mommy’s boy.
Now I can’t even imagine having a girl. I feel so connected to my sweet Henrik and all my apprehensions and fears have disappeared. It seems silly that I even felt that way back in the beginning. How could I fear this delicious sweet boy of mine? He has already taught me so much. And I can’t wait to teach him about everything I DO know. Heck, I even like cars more than his dad does! And whatever he wants do, we’ll support. If he wants to play with dolls, that’s ok too. I know dolls!
Having a son has turned out to be the most amazing thing, ever. I’m cloud 9.
Love you little man.